Prodigal Son

from Painful Inhabitance by eCsiLe

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(Verse 1)
Gone is a decade. Positive negative opposite obsolete optimal excellence
Offered the best that I could with reverence obvious gesture intended as evidence
Often I look back & ponder the essence of who I am versus who I intended
Pure intentions but swerved as I sped toward the peak I’ve reached, looking out from this precipice.
Like I could fall in an instant before I even know what hit me I’m gone with the wind. 
It’s sorta surreal. I’m numb and can’t feel a thing as I breathe it stings my lungs fill up with the cold breeze, eyes cannot see. I’m blind and time has just stopped beside me.
Now I’m lost. Lord, please come find me. Fill me up with your spirit and redefine me.

(Chorus)
You never left. You never left. (Whaooh)
 So why do I feel alone?
I ran away.
Lord can I come back home?

(Verse 2)
Only a foolish man cannot see the proof. The truth is the news missed the real scoop.
I’m at a loss for words. I toss & turn like I’m lost & hurt but I’ve got to keep searching for answers. Habits die hard like cancer. The more we look back the more we pass up the chance each day brings to sing and laugh and forget the past once we reach the dayspring.
I’m on the floor just pacing. Facing the fact that I’m caught in the rat race. Taking last place. Perhaps I can’t really understand the ramifications that moving too fast can have on the mind of a mere man. Will I find who I am or deny what His plan has been since He fashioned my life in His hand? I’m fighting the only one who knows who I am.

(Chorus)
You never left. You never left. (Whaooh)
 So why do I feel alone?
I ran away.
Lord can I come back home?

Distractions sending me backwards toward a disaster. Lord help me choose the right path. Without you I can’t decipher my own hand-writing, let alone try to find my way back.
Why did I say that? The things I wanna do I can’t but everything I fight comes right through.
Need to depend on your Spirit but sometimes I plug up my ears so I can’t really hear it.
This is getting ridiculous. My sin is breeding like photosynthesis.
I play the fool like I can’t see my inconsistency but bliss never comes from ignorance.
My life falls to pieces like dominos, feelin’ the heat like I’m runnin’ from a lava flow, coming back to hear you say that I’m not alone, killing the fatted calf to welcome me back like the prodigal!

(Chorus)
You never left. You never left. (Whaooh)
 So why do I feel alone?
I ran away.
Lord can I come back home?

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from Painful Inhabitance, track released July 4, 2022
Produced by Skoop (A.K.A. Kevlar)

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eCsiLe Aumsville, Oregon

A musical artist with a love for lyricism and musical expression… After releasing his first solo album in 2011, he began work on a sophomore effort titled "Painful Inhabitance." Before it was released, eCsiLe disappeared from music.

After a long journey that felt like 40 years in the wilderness, he’s back. What does that mean? Time will tell what God has in store... but it's in the right hands. ... more

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